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Name: Brandon
Country: United States
State: Washington
Metro: Vancouver
Birthday: 7/16/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Spreading Gods word, love and everything about Him. I enjoy soccer as well as videogames and food. I am pretty much interested in anything that can hold my attention.
Expertise: Everything
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
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AIM:  Brando71686
Member Since:
11/16/2004
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| So yeah my parents left about a week ago on a cruise that was in celebration of their 25th anniversary and I was thinking awesome this is going to be a fun couple of weeks with not much bother right. Boy was I ever wrong. It really wasnt going to bad just been working a lot and sleeping most of the time that I have spent at home but things turned very sour today and it has totally deflated my spirits. I woke up this morning on my day off from work expecting to grab a bowl of cereal and go relax on the couch watching sportscenter or something, but no sooner had I opened my eyes when i could tell something was wrong. I roll over only to see that my poor little puppy is laying lifelessly on the floor. I try to wake him up but he is not moving and he feels cold. I wraped him in a blanket and I ran and called the vet who said to bring him in but at that point I could tell it was pretty much a lost cause. After the longest ride of my life I get to the vet who kindaly informs me that there is nothing they can do because my puppy is no longer with us. I mean can a day start any worse than that?? I know there is nothing i can do but I cant get that vision out of my head and it is not allowing me to sleep. i cant call my parents because i dont want to ruin there cruise so here i am trying to be strong for my little sister but I just cant do it. There has to have ben something I could have done sooner. How can an animal go from a perfectly healthy being to that. How can I explain to my parents what happened. I mean for crying out loud little kids can take care of their pets what did I do wrong. So here i am just sitting wide awake because my room just gives me nothing but an image of my puppy laying on the floor. How am I to sleep tonight and work tomorrow, I dont know if i can do it but I have to work in 6 hours so i have to figure out something. So i guess i will try to sleep once again and try to postpone the memories of the puppy that once woke me up in the morning instead of keeping me up all night.
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| Hey everyone hows it going? Yeah yeah I know its been a long long long
time since I posted anything on this crazy site. I have been really
busy this summer with work and everything and then once soccer started
there went all the time I had. Oh well its kept me busy I guess.
Anyways I started school this last week and it hasnt been too bad so
far, but then again I haven't had much work yet. So I finally
made it to youth group this week and I have to say that I am glad that
II finally got back. I mean even though the group is very small being
just will right now I think we had a pretty good conversation and
discussion. I am really looking forward to next weeks lesson and
discussion. I realize since I have been gone so long from youth group
how much it actually means to my life. I have realized while being gone
how little I have done to further my relationship with Christ. I have
discovered how distant I have actually become, my lifestyle has changed
in minor ways and I think going back to youth group this week has
helped me see this. I know that most of you guys could probably
care less about this post since it has nothing to do with you
personally but it is something that helps me to think about it.
Anyways that is just kinda some rambling about what has been going on
with me so if you read it great (i guess) and if not oh well. So
I have just kinda been rolling through life not really living it but
not really dying in it either. The days just seem to be pointlessly
passing by with no meaning or purpose. They seem to be moments which
wont be remembered or relived, moments I will be neither proud or
disappointed in. When I think about it now it is kinda sad, and sad at
how true it really is.
Well that is my goal in the next few weeks anyways, to make my life
seem like it is actually worth something. The way I used to see it, the
way in which I felt I could make a positive influence on both my life
as well as the people I come in daily contact with. To try and get back
to church at times. To get more involved and try to be at youth
group more. I know its a lot but its something I used to be able to do
no problem until I let other things and excuses get in the way. I
need to refocus and once again center my life on Christ.
So, I guess thats all I have to say for the night since I am pretty
tired and everything but I hope that I will talk to some of you soon
and I wish you all the best of luck as the new school year begins and I
hope to hear great things.
Brandon
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| Yeah so definately was checking out the freaking myspace action tonight
and it SUCKS!!! It is so freakin retarded and confusing. I dont know if
it was just because I was tired or because of tha fact that I was
taking advice on what to do from a girl ;) but either way i was totally
lost and I dont think I will be using that much. Its got a really bad
format to it as well. If i could I would drop kick the thing it is so
freakin stupid. Yet I will most likely become strangely addicted to it
as is the case with this whole xanga madness.
Brandon
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| Yeah so I am definately bored out of my mind this weekend. My whole
family went camping without me because I had to work and they were like
w/e so they left and now they are gone til like monday and I have
little food to eat, and nothing to do. I mean I can deal with the food
because there are alternatives but the boredom is uncontrollable. I
mean I was playing PS1 games earlier I was so desperate to find
something to do. Anyways I am looking forward to youth group again
wednesday, I actually get to teach a lesson again, it should be
fun. Dont really care about it being memorial day cause I have it
off anyways, but other than that not doing much, just playing a bit of
settlers when I get the chance but as for now bored and going to bed.
Talk to you later.
Brandon
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| Yeah so I am happy about the fact that I have monday night off because
I am working the day shift, which will free me up to go to the monday
madness that the middle school is having. I also (amazingly
enough) have wednesday off this week so i will be able to make it to
you group which I am incredibly excited about like beyond everything
else. I am really disappointed that I have been gone for two weeks from
the youth group. I feel like I am letting my staff down as well
as the middle school kids and myself. I feel so
disconnected from the youth group lately like I dont even know whats
going on with everybody or anything in the group. I feel like a part of
me is missing and I am not even joking. Like My weeks feel incomplete
without being there. East Park is my home away from home and I am
feeling homesick. I am also really bummed that I missed the staff
retreat this weekend because I was really lookig forward to that and
then I got a freakin job and it is screwing a lot of things up but it
was something I had to do. I feel like I have no clue whats going
on in the group anymore. I mean it cant be good when you are finding
out about events from the middle school kids themselves, its just kinda
frustrating. Like where has all my time gone? I just want it to be like
it used to be where I was free to help out with all the middle school
stuff withou all this conflict , I need to find a way to straighten
this all out . I am hoping that it will get better once I finally get
everything all straightened out at work (but thats a whole nother story
in itself) so until then, have a good week and if I dont see you soon I
apoligize.
Brandon
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